Trust....

I have always been one to want to see the best in people and earn their trust in return. Sometimes, I tend to trust and let others in too easily. Ironically, the person I often have the most trouble trusting completely is myself.

This individual trust issue seems to be exacerbated by my pregnancy. When I spotted a small amount of blood today, my mind immediately went to the worst - I was having another miscarriage. It took several repetitive Internet searches, a chat with my mom (who I'm very open with about my fertility journey), encouraging words from my hubby, and lots of calming deep breaths for me to stop freaking out -- and remain hopeful. 

While not always normal, spotting and even bleeding is very common during early pregnancy. The cause for concern comes when the bleeding is bright red, heavy, fills more than one pad an hour, and/or is accompanied by other abdominal pains, especially cramping. Luckily, my spotting was ridiculously light, dark, and did not come with any unpleasant pains. I am hoping this is a good sign. 

A good friend of mine offered some comforting advice before I boarded my plane home to MD: to meditate, rub my belly, trust that everything is going well with my developing baby, and do some deep breathing on the plane. She also offered an inner mantra she finds helpful in staying optimistic, which I am adapting for my use below:

Trust in God,

Trust in my body,

Trust in myself,

Trust in my doctors,

Trust in my beautiful baby,

Trust that everything will work out,

Trust that my dream will come true.

Let's all try to trust our instincts and bodies more. We'll be glad we did.