Keep calm and grow on...

I'm currently lying in bed in a ton of pain. Unfortunately, the extreme cramping has persisted since Monday and the pain has been severe, so I knew I needed to do something about it today. I called the doctor, somehow managed to get through my morning meetings at school in one piece, and then had another ultrasound, this one much more extensive than Monday's. 

While no tissue was found remaining in my uterus, they did find a cyst next to my ovary. The doctor said these are normal and not to be concerned. If you say so! The nurses also did a complete blood count (to rule out infection), beta, and checked my vital signs. Hopefully, everything will come back normal.

I have a high tolerance for pain, but that doesn't mean I should have to put up with chronic pain unnecessarily. Instead of going back to school and getting worse, I decided to go home and head to bed with my codine like a good girl. My husband was impressed that I actually listened to my doctor and nurse. The doctor thinks my cramping is a direct result of the heavy bleeding I'm having, and he will continue to monitor the situation. Phew!

I'm listening to my body and finally giving it the time it needs to heal. I also have my feline nurse next to me, who won't leave my side. It's amazing how intuitive animals are.

Happily, I continue to get sweet and supportive messages from a variety of people. I'm including a few below for your reading pleasure:

* So lots of light to your heart. And the vacancy sign on my womb is still up, so reach out and hold my hand!

* Bean is ok, just not the OK we all wanted.

* Grieving is a working 

out of the blockage of the emotions and the mind. Sometimes it's crying that does it. Sometimes fasting does it. Sometimes running does it. Sometimes hard work will do it. There are a lot of things that do it. But to do it is very important.

- John-Roger
(From: Forgiveness: The Key to the Kingdom) 

* I was wondering how you were doing, so I just read your blog and was saddened to read about your recent loss. I just wanted to reach out and send you hugs, warm thoughts and prayers. I share your confidence that this will happen for you when the time is right and I am sure you will have the strength to wait, even though there will be hard days. I hope you and your husband continue to support one another and receive the support you need from all those around you who care about you so much.

Hang in there. 

My nurse: