Unfortunately, I've never enjoyed any one of my five ultrasounds to date. Two showed empty gestational sacs, one showed only my reproductive organs functioning properly and in perfect position (so I guess that was good news), and two showing that each miscarriage had occurred naturally, one of which was this morning.
It was an emotional weekend. Saturday was the worst due to my ridiculously painful cramps and the feeling like someone was stabbing my insides with multiple knives. Thankfully, I think I passed everything that afternoon, as the scan indicated this morning. This means I don't have to get a D&C, which is also good news.
Since I am among 15% of Caucasians who have a negative blood type, I have to get a shot called Rho-gan to prevent infection in my uterus or my body from producing antibodies to kill off future embryos or products of conception. I'm unclear about exactly how it works, but it seemed to make some sense, so I agreed to the shot. 30 minutes of fighting with my insurance company over the phone for authorization of the drug (followed by 45 minutes of waiting for a return phone call), I was approved -- and got to spend $25 instead of $218 for a single shot. Victory! I then had the privilege of receiving the shot intramuscularly (AKA: in the butt). Since I also had my blood drawn to chart down my beta today, I continue to feel like a human pin cushion.
On Thursday, my beta was 2919. Now, only four days later, it has fallen to 771. For the first time in awhile, I WANT to see the number drop. The faster it falls, the faster my body will be ready to try to conceive again. There is no medical reason to wait -- the only factor is whether you feel emotionally ready to try again. We do. Of course, the beta has to ideally drop to 0 first, so we'll try to be patient. My next beta is next Tuesday morning.
Now, I find myself in excruciating pain. For some reason, the combination of the ultrasound, cervix check, blood draw, and shot in the butt caused me to have the world's worst cramps. I think my body still has a lot of blood to get rid off, and the pain continues to be unpleasant. I have to keep reminding myself that this is a good sign, though. My body is naturally ridding itself of all products of conception, blood included. A little pain is well worth the cost of my body being ready for another pregnancy, hopefully in the near future.
I always have the option of getting a prescription for narcotics if the pain becomes too unbearable, as my nurse suggested today. Something tells me that would make driving and teaching teachers a bit of a challenge, though, so I'll hold off for now. ;)
Here's hoping that the next ultrasound I see will show something positive, maybe even an embryo! Here's to the future and perseverance!!!
Since I am among 15% of Caucasians who have a negative blood type, I have to get a shot called Rho-gan to prevent infection in my uterus or my body from producing antibodies to kill off future embryos or products of conception. I'm unclear about exactly how it works, but it seemed to make some sense, so I agreed to the shot. 30 minutes of fighting with my insurance company over the phone for authorization of the drug (followed by 45 minutes of waiting for a return phone call), I was approved -- and got to spend $25 instead of $218 for a single shot. Victory! I then had the privilege of receiving the shot intramuscularly (AKA: in the butt). Since I also had my blood drawn to chart down my beta today, I continue to feel like a human pin cushion.
On Thursday, my beta was 2919. Now, only four days later, it has fallen to 771. For the first time in awhile, I WANT to see the number drop. The faster it falls, the faster my body will be ready to try to conceive again. There is no medical reason to wait -- the only factor is whether you feel emotionally ready to try again. We do. Of course, the beta has to ideally drop to 0 first, so we'll try to be patient. My next beta is next Tuesday morning.
Now, I find myself in excruciating pain. For some reason, the combination of the ultrasound, cervix check, blood draw, and shot in the butt caused me to have the world's worst cramps. I think my body still has a lot of blood to get rid off, and the pain continues to be unpleasant. I have to keep reminding myself that this is a good sign, though. My body is naturally ridding itself of all products of conception, blood included. A little pain is well worth the cost of my body being ready for another pregnancy, hopefully in the near future.
I always have the option of getting a prescription for narcotics if the pain becomes too unbearable, as my nurse suggested today. Something tells me that would make driving and teaching teachers a bit of a challenge, though, so I'll hold off for now. ;)
Here's hoping that the next ultrasound I see will show something positive, maybe even an embryo! Here's to the future and perseverance!!!
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