I gave in to temptation....

I've been bad. Very bad.

Just after discussing my problems with impulse control with you, I have failed you. Yes, I gave into the temptation and took a pregnancy test this morning. It said it was positive.

I know, I know. I should be thrilled, but instead, I am a nervous wreck. What if it is a false positive? What if some of the HCG is still leftover in my system from the trigger shot over a week ago? I've heard it can take up to 7-10 days for this hormone to leave your system, so I'm trying NOT to get my hopes up too high.

I may have unnecessarily excited my husband this morning about the prospect of us being pregnant again. We are cautious this time around now. We are not allowing ourselves to get over-the-moon excited until we hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time. After that, the chance of miscarriage is less than 2 percent. Fingers crossed all goes well!

I think someone needs to invent a pregnancy test that detects whether you're pregnant at the moment of conception. Wouldn't that be AMAZING? I know, I know, that really isn't medically possible, but a girl can dream, right?

For those of you who find yourself spending half your paycheck on pregnancy tests, check out this economy pack from Amazon that seems reliable (See? I told you I was an Amazon addict!): http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B004AOMAOG/ref=oh_details_o00_s00_i00?ie=UTF8&psc=1. 50 pregnancy tests for $18.99 with awesome reviews? Yes, please!

Speaking of cool things I've found, this blog's readers have alerted me to four amazing online resources everyone TTC or struggling with infertility needs to check out:

1. http://www.anjionline.com/pages/Thankyou.html

2. http://ctworkingmoms.com/author/genagolas/

3. cottonbottommama.com

4. http://www.circlebloom.com/


Worth exploring for sure!

Oh, I just randomly thought of a new strategy, thanks to reading the millions of TTC message boards in existance (esp. those focusing on IUIs). Perhaps I should take a pregnancy test every morning to see if the line gets darker or disappears entirely. The darker it gets, the better chance we are actually pregnant. Any line that appears after it disappears also indicates a pregnancy. Hey, as long as this doesn't drive me crazy, it's worth trying, right?

Oh, trying......it gets exhausting! I need a nap.